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THANK YOU
2022
video, duration 1 h 19 min
336 sentences on a black background, appearing and disappearing one after another
Making this work was an exercise of gratitude. It was born out of a need to say goodbye to a certain period of my life and perhaps to a certain way of making art, too. The starting point for the work was to try to remember everyone I had ever met, and then to write a one-sentence thank you note to all these people.
Without using any aids for remembering, I could remember almost 3000 people. During the working process, I humbly had to admit that a life lived doesn't bow to my artistic aspirations: memories and emotions don't follow conceptual frames.
Thinking back on the life I have lived it feels that I have changed so much that many of my memories already seem to have happened to someone else. My perspective on this thing called `my´ life and `my´ memories has changed and of course, will keep on changing. Some things that I wouldn't have been grateful about before I am grateful about now, and some of the things I was grateful about before, I'm not grateful about anymore. And, even though I feel general gratitude to many people, I feel gratitude about specific things towards only some. The work also became an exercise of being honest and drawing boundaries: I'm not and I don't need to be thankful to everyone I have met. For all these reasons, the work consists of only 336 sentences.
How do you thank someone whose one sentence changed the course of your life? How do you select just one thing to be grateful for when it comes to a parent or a long-time friend? Some of the people who I thank in this work have been close to me all my life, and some have left their mark on my life as passers-by, maybe even unconscious of their influence.
I'm shaped by the people I have shared my life with, be it for years or fleeting moments, and many of these people have given me so much. I hope I have been able to do the same for them.
Supported by the Finnish Cultural Foundation
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Some of the sentences:
thank you for drawing me a bath
thank you for choosing your words so well
thank you for running your fingers on books on their shelves
thank you for being the parent I didn't have
thank you for reading to me
thank you for speaking with me about the unspeakable
thank you for not using emojis
thank you for helping me arrange my toy animals around my head in bed every night so that each of them touched my head
thank you for carrying me to sleep
thank you for treating my feelings for you so respectfully
thank you for showing me how to glue pebbles together to make castles
thank you for making me see my prejudices
thank you for pushing me to evolve
thank you for telling me it takes many years of unlearning to start to find one's voice
thank you for believing in me and telling that to me
thank you for helping me see there's more to life than pleasing others, living up to standards, and wanting to be the best
thank you for teaching me how to floss properly
thank you for nurturing my sense of wonder
thank you for loving so many of the same books as me
thank you for telling me to go for the thing that lit up my eyes
thank you for not asking me to be anything that I'm not
thank you for believing I could change
thank you for waiting for me
thank you for telling me not to go out in the winter with wet hair
thank you for being so genuinely interested in me
thank you for placing a small gift secretly into my pocket
thank you for trusting your child in my care
thank you for inviting us children to your home and letting us see how an artist's home can be like
thank you for saying that it's ok to feel that the other children are like another species
thank you for letting me spend so much time in the library
thank you for seeing potential in me when I didn't
thank you for bringing me fresh croissants in the morning when I deserved them the least
thank you for laughing with me when the situation was too bad for anything else than laughter
thank you for saying it's ok to clean the mess tomorrow
thank you for having tea with me for the last time
thank you for going on long walks with me
thank you for reading in bed
thank you for your warm skin
thank you for making me uncomfortable
thank you for instantly liking me as much as I instantly liked you
thank you for trusting me enough to put your life in my hands
thank you for crossing the line
thank you for showing me your insecurities
thank you for playing the piano in the evenings after I had gone to bed
thank you for waking me up in the middle of the night, so I could see a calf being born
thank you for loving my body
thank you for building a community where I finally felt I have come home
thank you for being the worst thing that ever happened to me
thank you for being one of the few people whose existence makes me feel I'm not existing alone
thank you for never pretending that Santa or God would be real
thank you for taking me to feed the ducks on the weekends
thank you for letting me figure things out on my own
thank you for never treating me as a less capable being just because I was a child
thank you for taking off the scary tiger mask and becoming a person again, holding me and telling me the tiger will never come back again
thank you for being there when I drove my bike without training wheels for the first time
thank you for your honesty even though it was not what I would have hoped to hear
thank you for not letting me fall
thank you for sharing my sense of humour, most of the time
thank you for always understanding when I'm being serious and when I'm making fun of myself
thank you for walking home with me
thank you for being the best first boyfriend anyone could have
thank you for introducing me to so much music
thank you for drying me with a towel
thank you for never calling me a nerd just because I was intensely interested in everything
thank you for thinking independently
thank you for saying everything would be fine even though we both knew it wouldn't
thank you for the note you left for me to find
thank you for becoming a part of my family
thank you for all your postcards
thank you for asking me to teach you
thank you for being so much like the person I wanted to be that it forced me to start becoming that person
thank you for trying to teach me how to be organised and do one thing at a time
thank you for teaching me things I understood only years later
thank you for keeping your word
thank you for not letting me kill ants with a hammer
thank you for showing me how to pet a cat in a way that the cat doesn't get upset
thank you for letting me take a break
thank you for letting me read books while the other kids were learning the alphabet
thank you for not keeping your distance
thank you for trying to teach me over and over again how to jump into the water head-first
thank you for forcing me to get up from the snow when I was too drunk to do anything but sleep
thank you for playing in the fallen maple leaves with me
thank you for teaching me how to be hospitable
thank you for understanding my need to be by myself
thank you for kissing your arm when our bodies were so intertwined you thought your arm was mine
thank you for teaching me not to consider myself above or below anyone
thank you for not laughing when my joke wasn't funny
thank you for building me a nest of blankets
thank you for wading in the river with me
thank you for forcing me to go out
thank you for leaving
thank you for helping me to stand up and walk